An Almost Newlywed

Sunday, July 12, 2015

You guys, I am getting married in like 60 days!! Like what even is this madness! Zachary and I are currently just waiting for our invites to finish printing, and then that is like the last BIG thing until the actual wedding day. I have been using The Knot app to keep track of our checklist of things to get down, and it is so weird to see the list get smaller and smaller of things to do. At the same time, it still feels like there is a million things to do, but that is how stuff like this goes I think.

I seriously am so excited to get married you guys. I NEVER thought that I would be getting married at 22, but here I am 60 away. I am going to try my hardest to keep this from turning into a sap fest, but I seriously just want to be married to Zac. I know our wedding day will be fun and special, but it will be NOTHING compared to the after. I get to spend the rest of my life with my favorite person that exists, and I just feel so lucky. I love having my person, and I honestly don't know what I would do without him. It is so weird to think that there was a time where we didn't know the other existed. Like seriously, how do we just happen upon these incredible humans that change our lives forever? It really is such an incredible thing.

To all of you that either are or have been a newlywed, do you have any advice or comments about newlywed life for this soon-to-be newlywed lady?

Planning

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Does anyone else have absolutely no idea what the heck they want to do with their life? Like seriously, anyone? I just had this conversation with a friend a few days ago, and it seriously was like a weight lifted off my shoulders when I found out I wasn't the only one having this problem. I know a lot of people in their twenties (or thirties, or forties) have this problem, but I don't think it can be talked about enough. How do you get through it?! How do you find that one thing?!

The one thing my friend and I realized is that we have very similar personalities in that we like A LOT of things. Not only do we like a lot of things, but we like a lot of DIFFERENT things. I seriously don't know how to explain it. It is like I am not picky enough to be able to choose one thing. I am good when there are only a few options, but when there are like hundreds of options I can't do it! There are so many things I think I would like, that I feel like I am going to spend all my time just trying to narrow it down rather than just going for something. I am very indecisive.

It is also one of those situations where one day you just KNOW what you want to do for the rest of your life. You have found your THING, and that is going to be it. Then 24 hours rolls around, and your realize that THING you decided on is the most ridiculous THING you could ever do with your life. Like what is that all about?

In case you are wondering I still have no idea what I want to do with my life, but I know that I will eventually get there. I have no idea when, (hopefully soon) but it will happen. I just have to realize that I  can't do everything, and I might just have to settle for work being work and I think I am okay with that.

Back, I Think

Friday, July 10, 2015

Sooo it has been a while. Blogging basically became one of those things where you want to have something to say, but you literally have nothing to say! Every time I think about posting my mind goes completely blank. I figured if I wanted to keep this going I was just going to have to do it even if I had no thoughts in my head. We know this is a common thing know. I have a tendency to ramble, so it shouldn't be too much different.

I do miss being able to express my emotions through words, but I seriously feel like I have forgotten how to. I often push my emotions to the back of my head, choosing to not deal with them, because honestly I don't know how to. Life lately has been on fast forward, and it feels like there is literally no time for thinking, just doing. I have been working basically full-time with my nanny gig, plus house sitting, plus more house sitting, plus wedding planning, plus saving time to remember how to breath.

I have been lucky though. There have been moments where I have been able to catch a breath whether it be going on a hike with friends, or having good conversation with people who just get it. I also have the most incredible fiance by my side, and a very wonderful family who has dealt with not seeing me for what seems like months. It is always times like these where you realize how incredible the people in your life are.

I really do hope that I can get back into this blogging thing again, even if I have forgotten how to really do that. You always hear those bloggers telling you to not post unless there is a point, or making sure you have a specific voice if you want to gain ALL the followers. I guess for me blogging isn't about that anymore. It no longer is the competition of gaining some huge following. I just want to find some like-minded people, and have some conversation. How do you guys feel about that?

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