Thursday, April 17, 2014

You know what I have realized? Having a blog is hard sometimes. I feel like I never really know what I want this blog to be, so I guess it just has to be a little bit of everything. Sometimes it is hard to be 100% you when you are in a world where everything is evolving into something new and better. Sometimes you just want to give in, just so it's easier. At least you think it will be easier. I have found it is actually a whole lot harder. It is hard to try and be someone you are not. So this blog of mine is just a little bit of everything. Sure, it is never going to be some huge and crazy thing, but I guess it just really doesn't matter. That stuff just isn't important to me anymore. It's just to hard trying to keep up with things you don't believe in. So that is why I am going to tell you about my day. 

Today was an incredibly good day! I did have to get up early for class which is basically hell in a nutshell, but I somehow made it onto the bus at 8:20am. How I have managed to do that every day this semester is beyond me! Oh wait... that hasn't happened. Like for real you guys, I am happy if I make it to school twice a week. Spring semester just end already! 

After I basically ran out of class to avoid the campus wide earthquake drill, I ended up catching an earlier bus than usual, so that was nice to get home early. I basically just sat around and relaxed until noon instead of studying for finals, because you know, priorities. Than I hopped in the car and headed over to Emma's lovely home. 

I'm sure most of you know the lovely Emma from Tightrope to the Sun. If you don't, you best be making your way over to that pretty little blog of hers right this second. Like seriously, her writing will make you feel ALL THE FEELINGS! No joke. 

Basically, Emma is one of my favorite humans in the universe, so we decided to have lunch today. We walked down to the coolest little cafe on her street, BECAUSE IT WAS ALL SORTS OF GORGEOUS OUTSIDE, and ate delicious food. Like seriously, I will rave on about this bagel that I had! Cream cheese, avocado, and tomatoes. It was unreal you guys. Not even a joke. 

Of course every time I get together with Emma it has been about a billion years since we have last seen each other, so we always have so many stories to catch up on. Emma is seriously the greatest human to talk to. We can have the most serious conversations, but then somehow we both end up cracking up at whatever is going on. Her life is pretty hilarious. Sometimes I just can't even handle it. She is one stellar human being. But seriously, Emma is one of my best friends, and I literally tell her everything. We both tend to be a tiny bit anti-social, so that is why we don't see each other that often. That and we are both crazy busy, but we are working on it!! But seriously, everyone needs a friend like Emma. Someone who you know you can tell ANYTHING to, and there will not be a single bit of judgement. She has been a major support in a big transition in my life, and I will never be able to thank her enough for that. She really is the absolute greatest. 

Alright, that is basically the end of my good day, because you obviously can't beat hanging out with Emma! Especially when Zachary is in Moab for a week. She is always a highlight to my week, so yeah... GO READ HER BLOG OR SOMETHING!

P.s- I finally got to see her Gatsby tattoo in person, and I all sorts of died inside.

*image via pinterest


Saturday, March 22, 2014

Alright, so I'm posting twice in one day. Is there some kind of rule about not doing that? Oh well, my blog right? You guys, Moab... I have lived in Utah basically my entire life, and I have NEVER been to Moab until two weeks ago. Living in Utah you see all the pictures of everyone spending their breaks there with family and friends. It is just part of living here, so whenever I told people I had never been they usually proceeded to freak out. Well guess what guys? I WENT! And it was more beautiful than any photograph could ever represent. It just has such a cool atmosphere about it. Everyone there is just so happy, and loving life. It just makes you want to never leave!

Here are a couple photos I took while our short little weekend there. I promise these pictures do it no justice.
Do you see that tiny little human under the arch?
Now do you see that tiny little human REPELLING off of the gigantic arch?!
Excuse the face I am making in this picture.. I'm not really sure what is happening! 

And I end with a fossilized dinosaur foot print.... legit!!  


So a couple of weeks ago Zac and I went to Moab for the weekend as most of you probably saw through my Instagram. I decided that instead of basically posting the same pictures from my Instagram here, I would wait to get my film developed. Yeah, that's right! Remember that film I never finished back when we took our spontaneous road trip to San Fran? Well I finished the roll in Moab, so prepare yourselves!

I thought that I would first share the remaining San Fran pictures, mainly because looking at them makes me so happy, and it's about time I shared them. These are from our last day there when we went over to Muir beach. It's just a little beach, but it was so stunning. The drive was sooo beyond beautiful, and looking at these makes me want to get back there as soon as I can.
Not exactly sure what happened here, but I'll take it. Haha
Back when I had longer hair.. YIKES!

And we end with a view..

I know I say it every time, but come on THAT LIGHT LEAK! I die. I seriously just love film. I love how raw, and natural it is. That is why I refuse to edit them. It takes away from the pureness of it all. I will be back soon with some pictures of Moab!

Journal Day #2

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

They say hindsight is 20/20, and with good reason- looking back at something always gives us a better view. We're often able to really see how our choices and decisions then shaped our today, and examine what we would have done differently given the chance. When looking back though, we often look way back, but for this exercise stay a little closer to present time and look back just 12 months. If you could go back just one year, what would you tell yourself? What advice would you offer about everything you've experienced?

I feel like I have kind of talked about this lately with the whole mission thing, and how I have learned to make my own decisions, so I won't go back to that. Something else I seemed to really have a hard time with this time last year was being okay with being alone. 

After my boyfriend of three years and I broke up two years ago I really had a hard time getting back into the swing of things. I chose to ignore what had happened, and just tried to fill my time with other things. I never wanted to be alone, and was constantly depressed at a lack of people to hang out with. For the past three years, I had spent all my time with him. I had made very few friends in college, and I just felt like I had no one. I was so dependent on having someone there for me to constantly be with, and I was frustrated I had let myself get to that point. 

Around this time last year I was finally fed up. I was done with the random flings that went nowhere, and I was done being unhappy because I didn't know how to meet people. I finally took a step back, and let myself think and be alone. 

It is kind of crazy thinking about it now. I value my independent time so much. I know take at least one day a week for a me day, because I have seen how much it has improved my overall happiness. It really is so important to take the time to sit back, and do things alone. That could be reading a book, going for a walk, or binge watching Grey's Anatomy. Anything that allows you some peace and quiet, and some time to sit alone with your thoughts. 

*image via Pinterest

A List of Ten

Sunday, March 2, 2014

I got this idea from Kylie from the blog kyliebrooke earlier this week. Basically, it is just listing ten things you love right this second. I think taking just a second to think about things you love, and that you are grateful for can completely change your mood around for the better. Hopefully, this is something that I can come back to occasionally.

Here is my list of ten:

  1. Natural light streaming through big window
  2. A good book, a comfortable couch, and a warm blanket
  3. Fireplaces
  4. Simply Balanced Strawberry fruit bites. But seriously, they are the bomb. 
  5. Kitties that love to sit on your lap.
  6. Hiking
  7. New running pants
  8. The app Inlight. It is the greatest.
  9. Pictures of mountains
  10. Cuddling
What are on your list of ten?!

*image via Pinterest