Tuesday, November 24, 2015


Because confidence is happiness


Monday, November 23, 2015

Basically all I want to do is post every single one of our wedding photos, but I am going to try and spread those out if I can! I've already overwhelmed the people of Facebook by doing just that, so sorry people of Facebook.

Life has been super busy lately, but it is finally starting to slow down a bit. One of the families I nanny for is out of town for Thanksgiving, so I all I have going on is a school for half the week. It is much needed considering how crazy last week was! I am taking an emergency first aid class, and basically EVERYTHING was due last week, including our final practical. You guys, I have AWFUL test anxiety, so I was freaking out about this final! It was for our lab, so I was thrown into a "real" emergency first aid situation, and had to remember all the five billion things you are supposed to do as a first aid responder. After I left the test I wasn't feeling the greatest about how it went. I had been so nervous, and I felt like I forgot everything! But I got my score today, and I did sooo much better than I initially had thought! I am so happy with the score I got, and I am so glad I don't have to worry about it anymore. That was the one part of the semester I was most nervous about, so I feel like it will be pretty smooth sailing from now until the end of the semester!

Seeing the semester coming to an end, and realizing that I have only one semester left until graduation has been pretty intimidating. I feel like right now is the easy part, and it is just going to get more crazy as soon as I am done with school. I have to start putting applications together this week for practicums, and that is just crazy to me! It is all starting to feel real, and that is scary! The future is coming, and it's coming right now! It is all just so nerve wracking, and I find myself constantly questioning if I have chosen the right career path. Is this what really makes me happy? Have any of you had this experience? I feel like I would feel a lot better about all of this if I knew I wasn't the only one questioning things at the last possible minute!

I guess all you can do is take it one day at a time, and just hope that life will lead you in the right direction. I am scared knowing that in the next six months I will most likely be moving someplace new. I have only ever remembered living in Utah (I lived in California and Idaho when I was really little), and the thought of leaving is terrifying!  I know Utah! I know how it works, and I understand the culture. It is scary thinking about having to learn all that over again someplace new, but it also is extremely exciting. I am looking forward for the experiences that are coming, and I am ready to give it my all.

Well I think that is enough word vomit for the night! Planning on putting all the "hard" stuff on hold for this week, and instead focus on the things that really matter. Like what we should have for dessert tonight! No bake cookies anyone?


Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Zac and I got our wedding photos back on Sunday, and I basically haven't been able to stop looking at them! These last few weeks at school have been incredibly stressful, so these pictures couldn't have come at a more perfect time. Obviously I am going to post them all here, because I need to post them on EVERY corner of the internet. Not really all, but get ready for a freaking photo dump!
This is one of my absolute favorites!
And this is my favorite picture of him!

Yay! You have survived the photo dump! Many more to come. Stay tuned!

The Four Gift Rule

Friday, November 6, 2015

Have you guys ever heard of this? My mother-in-law emailed Zac earlier this week asking what his thoughts were about it, and we both kind of fell in love with the idea. Both of us have kind of been heading in a more anti- consumerism direction lately, so this seemed to fit our goals perfectly. We thought it would be a great idea for both birthdays AND Christmas. Here is the four gift rule...
Isn't it kind of awesome? I love Christmas as much as the next person, but it kind of feels like Christmas continually becomes more about the shopping and buying, and less about the traditions you share with your family and loved ones. I am a sucker for holiday traditions, and I am really looking forward to developing new ones now that the "gifts" won't be the main focus. There are just sooo many things you can do during the holiday season that bring families and loved ones closer together, but I really feel that sometimes it gets tainted by the need to consume. Why else would Christmas decorations be going up BEFORE Halloween is even over? I mean when you look back on the holidays it isn't really the gifts you remember. It is drinking eggnog out of fancy glasses while you decorate the Christmas tree and watch Elf, or having orange rolls and cinnamon rolls every Christmas morning before you open presents. I am excited for this coming holiday season to be more about the traditions and time spent together than worrying what is getting put under the Christmas tree.

Have any of you guys tried this, or have family that have? What are your thoughts? And what are some of your FAVORITE holiday traditions?


Tuesday, October 20, 2015

I have been meeting to write this post for quite some time now, but of course life always seems to happen putting blog on the back burner. I read a blog post a little while back that Elizabeth of Delightfully Tacky wrote that really struck a note with me. She raised an awareness in me of where our clothes come from, and how blogging has unfortunately become a "consumption" based world. I would really recommend reading her post, because it is so wonderfully written, and who knows if I will be able to get it across as beautifully as she did.

I have such a hard time blogging anymore. I find myself slowly unfollowing more and more blogs anytime I get around to reading them, and I finally realize it is because blogging has changed. Obviously with time anything is going to change, but it took me a long time to figure out why I was so frustrated with the current blogging world. Then Elizabeth nailed it write on the head. Consumerism. It is actually HARD to go read a blog post that isn't either completely filled top to bottom with ads, or is promoting some new something or other. And I get it, a lot of people make their money through blogging, and that is exactly how you do it! However, somewhere in the consume, consume, consume, mindset I feel like blogging has lost a voice.

Just a few weeks ago I was looking through my bookshelf, and came across the book that actually got me into blogging. It's called Style Diaries, and it is basically a compilation of a bunch of different bloggers and their individual styles. Up until then I hadn't even heard of blogging. I had no idea what these websites under each person's name was! So I started exploring, and soon became completely captivated by the blogging world.

Finding this book made me realize why I fell in love with blogging in the first place. It was about inspiration. It was a way to express your style, voice, opinions, etc. through any sort of medium. I was OBSESSED with fashion blogging in the beginning. I was sick and tired of Utah's hipster/ preppy/UGG boots/ I don't even know style that was happening. I didn't feel like I meshed with any of it, and I had a hard time figuring out ways to express myself. Fashion blogs pushed me to be different. They gave me inspiration to thrift, and to figure out how different items in my closet could work. It gave me the confidence to be brave and creative with my style, and it really helped give me a sense of identity in high school.

Since then I have continued to participate in the blogging community, and up until a year ago I really was all in. But like a lot of people in this social media driven world, I began to compare and to want. I slowly found myself losing confidence in my voice as a blogger, and having no inspiration or want to continue. There are sooo many bloggers out their which is wonderful, but also hard. There is a very real pressure of not being good enough, or creative enough to be part of it. You are constantly bombarded with STUFF and THINGS that people are wearing, using, eating, buying, etc. Instead of actually reading the contact you find yourself wondering where they got their outfit, or where that rug in the corner is from. I started to feel like unless I had the stuff or the things what I said wouldn't matter.

So what have I taken from this? How am I going to escape the grasp of a society that tells us we need more? Well I decided to start in the place where I seem to get caught up into that wanting mentality the most... clothing. This has always been particularly hard for me. This is where I find myself actually spending money, and feeling like I need to keep consuming in order to be normal. However, I never really thought about where my clothes were coming from, or just why shirts at some very popular stores are so cheap (aka sweatshops). I think it was always one of those things that you constantly hear about, but I never allowed myself to really dwell on. And after reading Elizabeth's post about it I realized that I wasn't okay with it anymore. I'm not okay with the idea of women and/or children working for pennies a day to make my clothes, and the unethical and heartbreaking standards they are forced to work in. I do not feel okay putting money towards a system that mistreats human beings, so that I can wear cute clothes for a cheap price.

I have decided from now on do my best to only buy clothing that has is either second-hand, made in the USA, or ethical/ fair trade clothing. I know that this will be a lifelong challenge, and I am not saying that I won't make mistakes along the way, but I am making a commitment to make this change in my life. Will that mean not buying clothing as often? Definitely. The clothing is usually more expensive, and harder to find. However, I have been able to find plenty of awesome clothing company's that are ethical/sustainable/fair trade clothing, and was very happy to find out that one of my favorite places to buy clothes (Modcloth) has a few lines that meet ethical clothing guidelines as well as clothe made in the USA. I know that it will be more difficult, but to me it is worth it.

And I don't want this post to come off all high and mighty. I am not going to judge someone for buying a cute shirt at Forever 21 or H&M. That isn't what this is about. It is more about what led me to make this decision, and why it is important to me. That is the great thing about blogging. We are able to share our opinions, and get support from one another. We are able to teach each other, and talk about the things we feel are important. Some things will just go over our heads while others (for ex. Elizabeth's post) will change our lives and opinions forever. That is what I miss about blogging! Talking about the hard things, and having a place to talk about them in a safe and respectful way.

I think a lot of people, particularly women, have started to really speak up about how we compare our lives and our quality of life based on pictures we see on instagram/blogs/pinterest, and how they measure up. There is a wonderful hashtag going around called #imnotabigdeal that is all about this, and has a lot of very popular ladies coming out and telling the world that their REAL life is not the life you see in pictures. They are sharing little bits and pieces of what real life is like for them, and what goes on behind the scenes of the pictures we see on our feed. It really has been an inspiring thing to read through, and it is just another reminder that we all have our difficulties and hardships, and that no one has the "perfect" life. So lets all remember that the next time we find ourselves comparing our life to another persons.

What do you guys think? Is there anything about the blogging community you wish you could change? What do you love about the blogging community?

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