Journal Day #2

They say hindsight is 20/20, and with good reason- looking back at something always gives us a better view. We're often able to really see how our choices and decisions then shaped our today, and examine what we would have done differently given the chance. When looking back though, we often look way back, but for this exercise stay a little closer to present time and look back just 12 months. If you could go back just one year, what would you tell yourself? What advice would you offer about everything you've experienced?

I feel like I have kind of talked about this lately with the whole mission thing, and how I have learned to make my own decisions, so I won't go back to that. Something else I seemed to really have a hard time with this time last year was being okay with being alone. 

After my boyfriend of three years and I broke up two years ago I really had a hard time getting back into the swing of things. I chose to ignore what had happened, and just tried to fill my time with other things. I never wanted to be alone, and was constantly depressed at a lack of people to hang out with. For the past three years, I had spent all my time with him. I had made very few friends in college, and I just felt like I had no one. I was so dependent on having someone there for me to constantly be with, and I was frustrated I had let myself get to that point. 

Around this time last year I was finally fed up. I was done with the random flings that went nowhere, and I was done being unhappy because I didn't know how to meet people. I finally took a step back, and let myself think and be alone. 

It is kind of crazy thinking about it now. I value my independent time so much. I know take at least one day a week for a me day, because I have seen how much it has improved my overall happiness. It really is so important to take the time to sit back, and do things alone. That could be reading a book, going for a walk, or binge watching Grey's Anatomy. Anything that allows you some peace and quiet, and some time to sit alone with your thoughts. 

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