A year ago I said goodbye to one of my best friends in the entire world. He decided that he wanted to take a different path that I was not willing to go down with him. It literally was one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. Saying goodbye to someone you loved so much is never an easy thing. This past year has been a tough one, but I honestly have never been happier. I realize now how much it needed to happen. I thought it was the worst day of my life, but now I realize that it was the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I've talked a little bit about this here and here so I am not going to go into too much detail. It has just been on my mind lately, and I have just been reflecting on the whole situation. I found this quote above on Pinterest, and it kind of hit me.. like right in the heart or something cheesy like that. I just put this quote in perspective of where I was last year, and where I am today.
I wish the girl who was so heartbroken last year could have read this. The girl that felt so betrayed and so worthless. But that is exactly how it was. I was afraid of change. I had my entire life planned out from my children's names to what kind of dogs I would have. Even though I was a part of something so destructive, I still couldn't muster up the courage to get out or have the faith that it would all work out. All I can say now is change can be the biggest blessing. It is ridiculous to think that I thought I was happy last year! Ridiculous! If I would have read this last year I would have crumbled to the ground realizing that the relationship I was in, and the lifestyle I was headed towards was one that could never make me happy.. but change can be a scary thing.
I think people are scared of change because they are scared of the time commitment they must make to it. Change takes time, and that is hard for a lot of people to understand. It doesn't happen over night, and I can tell you first hand that it is not easy. But what I can tell you is there will come a point where you realize things have changed. You will realize that you see the positivity in things rather than the negative. You will realize that you are smiling, even though you have no idea why. You will realize that all the sudden you are happy, and it will be a happiness you never even thought was possible.
So don't be afraid of change. If you wouldn't be happy with how things are RIGHT NOW in a year, change some things around. I can't even begin to tell you how worth it it will be.
Oh, can I ever relate! Relationships seem to be one of the most difficult things to change. You get so comfortable and dependent, and imagining life without them seems impossible.
ReplyDeleteI'm proud of you! Way to be brave and break your cycle.
Thank you :) it's always comforting to know you aren't the only one going through the same situations. It is so true though. You get so caught up in the future with them, and you become so dependent. It's a hard cycle to break, but sooo worth it!
DeleteOk, how weird that you would post this now because that's how I feel. Two years ago I made a similar change in my life, and I see now it is for the better. With time, you can heal and forgive. It's a beautiful thing. Love the quote and the post! :)
ReplyDeletep.s. "You will realize that you are smiling, even though you have no idea why." Wowza, so true!
Thank you so much :) I kind of feel like everyone has been through some kind of an experience that has changed them. But like I said in other comments, I am so grateful to know that I am not the only one!
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xo,
Allie
www.sparklesandstilettos.blogspot.com
Oh you are the sweetest! Thank you so much! :)! I have been following your lovely blog for a while now, soothe feeling is mutual!
DeleteCongrats on your 100th post!
ReplyDeleteLeaving people behind is hard, but sometimes it's what you have to do. Especially if they aren't good for you. I can definitely relate. Sending love <3
thank you! so so much. it definitely is, but in the end it can be so worth it.
DeleteYou're so right!
ReplyDeleteWe are often so afraid of change, and falling out of our routine but most times change is good. Also time heals all wounds, and that is a lesson that you learn only after enough time has gone by!
exactly! i think for the most part people are really impatient. it's like if they don't see immediate results they give up, and think that it was pointless.
Deletei wish i could write letters to my past selves and tell her that it would all work out.
ReplyDeleteright?! wouldn't that be something
DeleteI used to be so completely afraid of change. There was no definite reason behind it. It just set me into a panic to think about it. I've come to learn that change is almost always good and now find myself working toward change. Not necessarily because something is bad or needs to be fixed. I just crave changes sometimes. It's a really healthy thing.
ReplyDeletei agree! i like how you said that. i do think change is a healthy thing. it allows us to grow in ways we otherwise couldn't
Deletefirstly, thank you SO much for your kind words. you don't know how much i appreciate them!! you're wonderful!
ReplyDeletesecondly, man oh man how right is that quote? i often welcome change..but i sometimes am really scared of it, too! change is so difficult and sometimes it can take a toll on you. but what a strong woman you are! and there is always certainly a reason for change..sometimes to make you stronger, or to show you a new path.
i'm sorry for what you went through, but look at you now! so much happier, which is so dang great. i will embrace change!
oh stop it! :) YOU are wonderful my dear. thank you for always saying the kindest things. change seriously is so crazy, but you are right! just have to embrace it!
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