Monday, April 22, 2013
A year ago I said goodbye to one of my best friends in the entire world. He decided that he wanted to take a different path that I was not willing to go down with him. It literally was one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. Saying goodbye to someone you loved so much is never an easy thing. This past year has been a tough one, but I honestly have never been happier. I realize now how much it needed to happen. I thought it was the worst day of my life, but now I realize that it was the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I've talked a little bit about this here and here so I am not going to go into too much detail. It has just been on my mind lately, and I have just been reflecting on the whole situation. I found this quote above on Pinterest, and it kind of hit me.. like right in the heart or something cheesy like that. I just put this quote in perspective of where I was last year, and where I am today.
I wish the girl who was so heartbroken last year could have read this. The girl that felt so betrayed and so worthless. But that is exactly how it was. I was afraid of change. I had my entire life planned out from my children's names to what kind of dogs I would have. Even though I was a part of something so destructive, I still couldn't muster up the courage to get out or have the faith that it would all work out. All I can say now is change can be the biggest blessing. It is ridiculous to think that I thought I was happy last year! Ridiculous! If I would have read this last year I would have crumbled to the ground realizing that the relationship I was in, and the lifestyle I was headed towards was one that could never make me happy.. but change can be a scary thing.
I think people are scared of change because they are scared of the time commitment they must make to it. Change takes time, and that is hard for a lot of people to understand. It doesn't happen over night, and I can tell you first hand that it is not easy. But what I can tell you is there will come a point where you realize things have changed. You will realize that you see the positivity in things rather than the negative. You will realize that you are smiling, even though you have no idea why. You will realize that all the sudden you are happy, and it will be a happiness you never even thought was possible.
So don't be afraid of change. If you wouldn't be happy with how things are RIGHT NOW in a year, change some things around. I can't even begin to tell you how worth it it will be.