Mister B

So as most of you know, my puppy passed away a couple weeks ago. I know a lot of people have a hard time understanding how hard it is to lose an animal, but I really feel like I lost my best friend. I just want to thank you all so much for the love and support you have shown me. Seriously though, I would not be getting through this if it wasn't for the people constantly by my side. So thank you all of you who have taken the time to send some words of encouragement. It really means the world.

I wanted to take a little time, and tell you all about my amazing puppy. I got Calvin for Christmas in 2003 I believe. It was basically the biggest shock of my life. I was not expecting a puppy, so when I saw him Christmas morning with a big bow tied around his neck... you could guess that I was pretty ecstatic. Every since he has been my best friend.

I don't know what more there is to say. He was just my best buddy. He helped me get through some of the toughest moments of my life. The moments when you just can't handle people anymore. He was the only one I could really just cry in front of without having to listen to people pestering me about what was wrong. He would just let me hug him, and basically be there for me. I know that is cheesy, but there really is just a comfort that only a dog can bring to you. Or I guess probably any animal.

He seriously was the strangest lab on the planet!! He never chased a ball (unless there was peanut butter on it), and spent the entire day sleeping. The one thing that he did love though was water (well, and food.. and me). We used to buy him little kiddie pools in the summer for him to go and lay in. Except after he laid in his pool he would go and roll around in the dirt which my mom didn't like.

I don't really know what else to say. These are just some of the FEW things that come to mind at this moment. I don't know... this post is obviously dedicated to him, and so here is a little message to my main pup..

Mister B/ B/ Fat Man/ Mister Bins/ Calvin,

I love and miss you more than you could probably understand. Life isn't the same without you, and I don't like this new routine I am forced to start living. I miss leaving my door open a crack at night knowing you would push your way through to sleep next to me for just a little while in the morning. How excited you got when it was time for breakfast. How every time I came home you would be waiting by the door. As soon as I opened the door you would lick my hand, and then go sit by the stairs waiting for me to come play with you. Having our daily wrestling matches, even though I could tell that sometimes you wished I would just leave you alone ;) The way you used to lay on your back with all your legs up in the air, tongue hanging out, waiting for someone to come give you a belly rub. I miss going outside to read, and having you lay next to me soaking up the sun. I miss you giving me "the paw", and when I would hug you, you would just lay your head on my shoulder. I miss our forehead hugs or whatever you want to call them. I just miss you. Things will never be the same. I just want someone to be as excited as you were to see me every time I came home. You were the best pup in the entire world, and I won't ever forget you. This little paragraph isn't even close to explaining all the things I love and miss about you.
Thank you for being my best friend, and for always being there. I can't wait to see you in heaven. You better run to me first ok? I love you B. Forever and always.