1.5.15

Friendships have been on my mind a lot lately. It is so strange to me that even after 22 years of living I still have a hard time realizing that friendships come and go. I mean, this is something I have dealt with my whole life, and something I always was able to remember when things just weren't right anymore. I think this time it is different, because I see friendships fading that I never thought would. I feel hurt, but I know it isn't their fault. Friendships come and go, and you can't always be in charge of the going.

Ever since Zac and I got engaged I have seen a shift in my friendships. There are those friendships that have become closer and more intimate, and then there are friendships that have slowly started to disintegrate. For a while I was so angry about this. I didn't understand what had changed, and why things had changed so quickly. I started noticing that all effort of rekindling these somehow broken relationships was on my shoulders, and I was caring all the weight.

I guess the new year came with a new perspective in realizing that even though I thought nothing had changed, things indeed had. I am getting married this year. I am moving on in my life. I am opening a new chapter, and things are going to be different. Being married is different than being someones boyfriend or girlfriend. It is a solid relationship. Although Zac and I had always talked about getting married with our friends it is a whole different scenario now that it is a reality.

So I guess I would just like to say thank you to those friends that have stuck by. I am so excited to share the next year with you! I know this is going to be a year to remember. I feel like I have always valued my friendships, but going through this experience has shed a new light on how truly important my friendships are to me. This year I am going to strive to be a better friend, and to make more time for them in my life.

For those friendships that have faded, all I can say is every single person in my life has impacted me in such incredible ways. I have been so blessed to know such amazing humans, and I understand that sometimes lifestyles change, and with that friendships change as well. I am so grateful for the friends that were such a big part of my life in 2014, and I hope that I will always remember that.

So here is to a new year. A year of continuing friendships growing stronger, and hopefully some new ones along the way.