Sunday, September 15, 2013
What I have been forced to learn today is that some things just aren't meant to work out. For a time, it can be the greatest blessing in your life, but sometimes it just can't work out. Although I knew in the beginning it was something that could never last forever, I am glad I took the risk of going for it anyway. However, taking risks comes with consequences. Consequences you don't even realize until it is all over... too late. Things like realizing you had fallen in love, and didn't even know it. Or maybe you did, but were to scared too accept it. Too scared because you knew one day it was going to end, and falling in love just didn't seem worth it. Well, it happened anyway.
You may be asking why would I even start something I knew couldn't work out in the first place. I started it, because I believed in it. I don't know why all this happened the way it did, but I know that during these last few months I have had someone that could make me understand things about myself that no other human could. Someone who made me believe in myself, and made me realize that my dreams were worth fighting for. And you know what, if that was the role they were meant to play in my life, I am ok with that. I finally have figured out what I want to do with my life, and I am not scared to go full force towards my goals. I am not letting anything hold me back anymore.
Although my time with this remarkable human was far too short, I don't regret taking that chance. That chance of forgetting the odds, and trying anyway. Things may not be so great right now, but I know one day I will be able to look back and see exactly what their purpose was in my life. Until then, I am just going to be sad for a little bit, because I already miss them and I think that is ok.
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