I feel like I am doing everything I am supposed to do. I feel like I am doing everything I have been told to do, but things just won't come together. Today was the day that my whole life was supposed to change... but here I am, sitting at home, just wondering what things would have been like if today happened the way it was supposed to. People make mistakes, and sometimes those mistakes change everything. I still don't know if it is for the better. All I can do at this point is have faith that it was for the better.
I realize that the only thing I can do now is have patience, and trust in the Lord that he will guide me through this. I have complete faith in that. It is all I really have at this point.
I see all these people around me making these huge changes in there life. They have said a "see ya later" to the things that didn't make them happy, and have just gone for it. These people are such an inspiration to me. They have taken their lives into their own hands, and are doing what they love. I know that sounds completely selfish, but I don't know if it is such a bad thing. What is more worth it? Living your life in fear of displeasing others, or having the courage to stand up for yourself, and take control of your own life. When it comes down to it, it is our life to live. I believe there is a balance. I don't think you are ever too young or too old to take chances. If it doesn't work out the first time, try it again. Your life is never something to give up on.
I think I am slowly getting to the point of taking control of my life. To pushing out every one's opinions of what I should be doing with my life right now, and relying on myself instead. I am so ready to take MY life back, and take the time to figure out what I think is best for me. The only person I am choosing to rely on through this is the Lord, and I think with Him I can finally get through this. I can finally figure out where exactly I am meant to be.
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