Blogs I'm Lovin'

Alrighty, I think it is about time for some new blog favorites! I am constantly finding new and amazing blogs to follow. Here are three of my favorites at the moment!

 

 

Lifesize Paperdoll

 

Little Girl in a Big World

 

The S Diaries

 

Well there you have it. Give all three of those lovely ladies a visit. I think the one thing I love most about different bloggers is you find people that really have so much in common with you. It is so interesting to be reading something, and it almost feels like you wrote it yourself. I love this because I have a hard time voicing my thoughts through simple text. It amazes me seeing these girls that are exactly like me that can write so beautifully. I just read these things and think, "That is exactly how I have been feeling!" I just don't know how to get it across so effortlessly. I think it is because I get side tracked pretty easily. I have all these thoughts in my head, but I have no idea how to form the thoughts into sentences that actually make sense.

 

I hope that I can get the hang of this blogging thing, so that eventually I can get my point across more clearly. I feel like so far I have been a little boring. This thing is supposed to be about my day-to-day life, but I rarely write about stuff like that. I am making a goal to be more honest with my writing. The thoughts that go through my head on a constant basis. Get ready for some randomness up in here! I think my problem is I always forget that I haven't blogged for like four days, so I hurry and put something together in order to just get something new on the blog. So the things so far haven't really been me.

 

I think another problem has been the fact that I just completely started over with blogging. I had my other blog I Would Like To Call It Beautiful for about a year. I kind of developed myself on that blog. I think I have forgotten that a lot of you that are reading this now are first time readers, so you don't know me. I just kind of carried on from my last blog, and I figured everyone knew who I was already. It is kind of hard to completely restart. I just never really thought about it. So my bad!

 

I guess I will start right now! Like right this second. Here comes the randomness!

 

I am kind of an oddball. I am really shy around people I don't know, unless I am with people that I do know... Does that make any sense? Like, I am fine hanging out with new people as long as I have someone I know really well with me, but I cannot for the life of me make conversation with someone I don't know if I am alone. It is really frustrating. I don't know why I am that way. I would like to think that I don't care what other people think about me, but the truth is I think everyone cares a little. I must care more than I thought. I don't really know. I believe in always being 100% me. I really feel like I don't care what people think of me. I think I am more scared of feeling like I am bothering people. I do NOT want to be a bother. I am scared of just going up to people and starting conversation, because I feel like I am being a bother to them. The only time I am really around people my age is when I am at school. When I am at school I am scared to go up to people just sitting in the library cafe, because I feel like they must be doing homework or something so I don't want to bug them so they can't do their homework! At the same time, when I am in the library I RARELY am doing homework! Haha I guess I just like to think that everyone else is a better student than me, and they are doing their homework. In all reality, most of them are probably doing the exact same thing I am... which is absolutely nothing!

 

I think I might tell myself that people are busy doing homework because then it doesn't put pressure on me to talk to them. I am so awful! Haha This is why I have been trying to do the whole College Street/Bike Style. After my first experience with Hannah, I realized I am a lot more comfortable when I am behind the lens. I don't really know why. It just kind of happened that way I guess. I am going to be honest, I wanted to start this series with the chance of making friends, but I think what this is going to do for me is push me out of my comfort zone, and force me to make conversation with people. Who knows if I will make friends or not, but at least I will be socializing with people my own age.

 

Wow, that really makes me sound like I am a loner that sits in my room and watches Criminal Minds all day. Haha I have friends you guys. I have some of the most amazing friends on the planet actually. The thing is, I have known pretty much all of my friends since elementary school. Don't get me wrong, my friends are insanely important to me, but the disadvantage to having friends since elementary school is you stay together but your interests start to differ. You continue to hang out with them because you are comfortable with them, and have pretty much known them your whole life. That is where I have trouble. I barely have any friends that really have a lot in common with me. The friends I have know really are troopers, and will try to do stuff with me that I love, but it just isn't the same. There really is a HUGE difference in hanging out with someone that actually likes what you are doing, and hanging out with someone who is doing something that you love because they love you. That is kind of my goal this school year. To make friends that I share interests with. Now if I only knew how to find these people!

 

Sorry if this has just been a ton of ranting. I tend to do that sometimes. I think it just has to do with the season. Fall is probably my favorite season of the year, but it is the time of year when I am most confused. It is the time of year when school and work is crazy, and there really isn't any free time. This is the time of the year where I try to think of new goals, and what I want out of life at the moment. So I apologize in advanced if I have more posts like this. This is my way of figuring things out. I write all my thoughts down in order to organize them, and find a solution to the problems I am having.

 

I think that is enough for now about things that are serious, and a little depressing. Haha I think it is time to talk about some things that are happy. Yeah, I am going to start talking about happy things now. My best friend and I are going to Europe next summer! Every time I talk about it, I get more excited! This will be my first time going to Europe EVER, so I guess you could say I am stoked out of my mind! We are going with this program called EF College Break. I had a couple of girls in my neighborhood that went with them last year, and they absolutely loved it! We are going on a twelve day trip to London, Paris, and Barcelona. Gah, I am so excited!

 

Speaking of being excited, I am also insanely excited for Halloween! Pretty sure that Halloween is my favorite holiday by far! I just love seeing how people dress up, and I love dressing up as well. This year has been kind of a lame Halloween season for me, but it is mostly because I  am just being lame. I didn't really take the time to put together an awesome costume, so it has been a little disappointing. I also haven't watched one scary movie! What is this?! Scary movies are some of my favorites! I did carve an awesome pumpkin though. I was very proud of that. I also had roasted pumpkin seeds for the first time. I am a huge fan of those. I know Halloween hasn't passed yet, so I am hoping I can find something absolutely fantastic to do on Halloween. If I end up sitting at home alone, I will consider myself a failure.

 

Just so you know, I am just writing about random thoughts that come to my head. For some reasons, boys is the next thing that came to mind. Uh oh. I have very strange taste when it comes to boys. Strange as in my friends avoid eye contact with me when I point out someone that is cute. Kind of like they didn't even hear me... I know you hear me you guys! The only one that sort of gets it is Bianca. Thanks B!

 

Anyways, here is what I tend to go for. Long hair. You guys, it is so bad. I think it is starting to become a problem. Let me play out a scenario for you. Before I start let me say that I swoon of any well- dressed guy. I guess you could say it is kind of a must. Take a look over here if you need some examples of what I mean when I say "well-dressed." Strangely, it always comes down to the shoes. If you are wearing the perfect clothes, but have bad shoes... it is just a no. I know that is awful, but for some reason I just can't stand it. The shoes tie it together. They don't have to be like super fancy shoes. Just good looking shoes. Skater boy vans are the exception. I don't know why. They just are.

 

So as for this scenario. Let's say there are two guys. One of the guys is probably the most attractive guys I have ever seen. Like his face was sculpted by angels or something like that. Just very attractive AND he is extremely well dressed. Good shoes and everything! He has nice, short, clean-cut hair, and a nice clean shaven face. Maybe a little bit of scruff. Sounds attractive right? Well, then there is this guy next to him with long curly hair, a t-shirt, jeans, and worn out vans. When I say long hair I mean at or almost at his shoulders. This guy has a cute face, but not as attractive as the guy whose face was sculpted by angels or something. Just a nice looking guy. He probably has a beard as well. Just kind of grungy looking. So here is how the scenario plays out. I don't even see the super well- dressed, angel sculpted face, clean cut guy. I choose the guy with the long curly hair every. single. time. Like without fail you guys! It is bad. Do you know how many guys have long curly hair? Not that many! It really limits things. Haha

 

To give you guys a better understanding, if I could draw a picture of my dream guy characteristic for characteristic, I would end up drawing a picture of Matthew Gray Gubler. The end.

 

Alright, I think that is enough for today. Thanks for letting me ramble. I hope everyone has a fantastic Sunday!